Today

I don’t know if reading through my posts I sound like I have a lot of present mood disorder issues. I wish I didn’t have it or have to deal with it, but I am much, much, much better than when I was first diagnosed.

At that time, I was psychotic, but even before then, I had times when I would cry for no reason or not leave the house. I haven’t been hospitalized since 2005 or had psychotic symptoms since 2006. I have coping skills. I don’t micro-manage symptoms. If i have a good day I enjoy and take advantage without worrying if it is going to turn into mania.

My biggest issue now is anxiety and even that is better. It is hard for me to notice, but people around me tell me I seem more at ease. I do presentations for NAMI which is hard for me to believe with my social anxiety. I am not a great speaker, but they go over well.

I am married. I was diagnosed after 7 years of marriage, so my husband didn’t sign up to marry someone with a mental illness but he has been supportive. I have 2 teenagers, who are doing well, for teenagers. I do some volunteer work, I would say an issue i have now is time management.

lorib